Hey Marchie :)

Sorry for not updating after 2 months

pretty lazy :\

well, my uni classes still haven't start

it will begins at the end of March

Yes, I'm definitely NOT ready yet ._.

but I guess I'll love my course

and I MUST GET A GOOD RESULT, MUST!

Holiday is boring :(

I can meet my friends more BUT besides that I have nothing else to do =__=

Life is getting better and worst in different ways

Better is because Dancing always makes my day and seeing people work hard to achieve something is fulfilling my heart, a kind of happiness and satisfaction

Worst is because when you know you are bad at something and you have no confident to make it better, besides, people always say good things to you instead of real & honest words, that's quite sad for me.

Day by day I love my friends more

I have some good sisters

they are always there when I need them

even if they can't help much

but at least, at least they are there for me

thanks babes :')

by the way

I'm freaking broke now

so many friends birthdays on March T.T

kay anyway

byee and good night :)

1.1.2012 :)

Hey peeps, it's the first day of 2012

and I'm back from Taiwan :D !!

I'm falling sick :\ guess it's because of the weather changes

It's quite cold in Taiwan, and then Malaysia is really hot

that makes me fell sick

having a high fever, but I still can't skip the countdown with my beloved friends :)

I celebrated Christmas with my family in Taiwan

It's really memorable

and I think when you are in another country, your family is always the one that you can depend on

It feels really good when you can depend on someone and be a kid just for a moment

then during 31.12.11

My friends and I went to Anys' house for her housewarming and of course -> COUNTDOWN :D !!

most of us overnight there

and we all slept around 6-7am =__= It's kinda crazy LOL

Before 12am, we went to a park and the lake there is really nice

During 12am, we wished each other a Happy New Year :D !!

We watched the fireworks together, happily together :)

No words can describe the feeling when you are with your friends

You know, for me, I really love the moment when all of us are together, EVER SINCE I BORN

then, we made a crazy decision

We ran in to MCDONALS

and we shouted Happy New Year !

then... an awkward silent..

It's so embarrassing.. yet insane

BUT STILL, *there's always a BUT*

I'm loving it :P hahahah

So now, my new year resolution:

(1.) Must keep dancing and improve as much as I can

(2.) Must study harder and smarter cause I don't want to disappoint my parents AGAIN

(3.) Must LOSS WEIGHT !!!

(4.) Forget about him, I'll try my best, and I accepted the truth, but things that happened are always there; when it happens, means you can't change it, the only way is to accept and hold the pain.

(5.) Learn to express my feelings, to my friends, and also my family; I'm not a person that know how to show my emotions or feelings or whatsoever, so sometimes people always misunderstand me and I don't know how to explain to them.

(6.) Love my family and friends. <3

Things that I want to apologize in year 2011:

(1.) I'm sorry that I can't get a good results like the others.

(2.) I'm sorry that sometimes I left out some of my friends, cause actually I'm a cold person, as in sometimes I just want to be quite, so don't misunderstand me, I'm really sorry..

(3.) I'm sorry that I have been giving you pressure about my feelings, simply because of my own benefits, Sorry that I've made you feel really bad, I didn't expect that would happen, You're a nice guy, but sometimes when you keep the truth from me it would only hurt more in the future, and I'm sorry that I've been giving you troubles and there's always rumors, Sorry for disturbing you for all the time, I'm just sorry.. but we are still friends right :) ? haha Thanks.

and so

these are all the things that I want to say

Thanks to everyone that accompanied me throughout the whole year and also those who appeared in my life during 2011 :) <3

It really made my college life fabulous :)

I love 2011 , but still need to let it go

Let the pain flow with 2011; Remember all the happiness that happened; Be grateful for what you have right now; Learn to appreciate everything and everyone; Love your friends and family.

Hi 2012 :)

Be nice to me , and I'll love you more than 2011, okay ?

TDC CHRISTMAS PARTY :D !!

I'M REALLY EXCITED

SO I THINK I WILL TYPE EVERYTHING LIKE THIS HAHAHA

IT HAS BEEN A LONG TIME FOR US TO GATHER TOGETHER

WE WERE WAITING FOR SO LONG FOR THIS PARTY

AND ITS TODAY :D 23.12.11 !!!

OWH AND JUST IN CASE SOME OF YOU DON'T KNOW

TDC = TAYLORS' DANCE CLUB <3 <3

IAN CAME BACK FROM U.S

PENNY IZZY CAROLYN NIC AND EVERYONE CAME BACK

I'M JUST REALLY EXCITED TO SEE THEM AGAIN

CAUSE I'LL NEVER KNOW WHEN IS THE NEXT TIME FOR ME TO SEE THEM AGAIN :'(

IT HAS BEEN A LONG LONG NIGHT

A NIGHT WITH LAUGHTER, SCREAMING, SHOUTING, EXCITEMENT, JOY, CRAZINESS AND WHAT SO EVER

ITS TDC !! COME ON !

NOTHING CAN BE MORE CRAZY THAN THIS

JUST 1 THING, 1 MORE THING

I CAN'T OVERNIGHT THERE T___T

IT'S JUST SIMPLY SAD CAUSE CANNOT STAY LONGER TO HAVE FUN WITH THEM

I KNOW I MISS EVERYTHING T___T SHOOT ME.

BUT ANYWAY

I'M REALLY HAPPY THAT CAN STILL SEE EVERYONE AGAIN

THE FEELINGS ARE LIKE.. WE ALL CAME BACK TOGETHER :)

PPL ALWAYS ASK, WHY DO YOU JOIN TDC?

I ALWAYS ANSWER THEM, " ITS NOT ONLY A CLUB, IT'S A FAMILY, OR EVEN MORE THAN THAT :) <3 <3

I DON'T KNOW HOW TO DESCRIBE IT ALREADY

TOO MUCH FEELINGS AND THINGS TO DESCRIBE

SO YEAH

TODAY IS A VERY MEANINGFUL NIGHT

I SHALL REMEMBER TODAY FOREVER

TDC WILL NEVER DIES

I'VE NEVER REGRET FOR JOINING THIS CLUB UNTIL NOW

THANKS FOR THE LOVE FROM EVERY TDC MEMBERS

LOVE ALL OF YOU TOO :D !!! <3

-TDC-TDC-TDC-TDC-TDC-TDC-

Officially graduated :D !!

Today, 15.12.11 is the most memorable day in my life
I'm officially graduated from CPU :D !!!!
*screams*

I don't know where should I start to describe
I'm just way too excited xD

Today my parents came
I thought they would be very busy but at least they still come :)
HAPPY NUFF ! hehehe

the best part is
TAKING PICTURES WITH MY FRIENDS
LOTS AND LOTS OF FRIENDS !! :D <3 <3

cause Picture is the only thing that can keep our memories
I took a lot
I just wonder where is it now HAHAHA

It was really fun and happy and sad too
I will be missing CPU so much :'(
It's like.. THE BEST COURSE EVER PUHHLISS
nothing can replace it

and then my friends and I went for a movie
then we just crap around and doing stupid stuff lol
but you know
only closer friends can do stupid stuff together
SO YEAH hahaha

I love today
I love my friends my parents and CPU !! :D
but most of all
We Love Each Other :3

THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING IN CPU
IRREPLACEABLE MEMORIES :)

I shall leave with joy :')

Love ALL OF YOU, EVERY SINGLE ONE
Keep in touch, Take care
Don't forget everything that happened :')

LOVE AGAIN <3 !!!!!

The movie ends.

Life is like a drama or maybe a movie

Different things that hurt, make you happy or sad
whether you like it or not, it still happens
it's either a long-term or short-term effect to yourself

Today is 9th December 2011
last day of all the exams in CPU
my friends and I went to college
we talked and played

I'm really happy that we could still gather together for one last time
nobody knows what will happen in the future
same to me

today I realized how much I like a person
cause my heart still beats fast whenever I see him
and I smile, more charming than usual
I told him everything, again

I'm happy yet sad
actually I still got a lot of things not yet tell you, A LOT
I wanted to tell
but I didn't manage to tell you :'(

things end
everything is over, I guess
I'll remember today, too
I'm a bit sensitive to the person that I like
I will remember the moment that we hugged
it meant more than you thought to me at that moment
and I struggled
I controlled it until you left
I teared.

for me, it's like the end
don't think that we are going to meet so soon
when will be the next time for us to meet each other?
I wondered.

find another guy?
I'll see how things go
cause I don't think I will find one so soon
I'm bored of guys, and tired

so..really have to farewell now
if possible, Remember me
cause I'll remember you :)



to the person that I like,
Goodbye :')

first day of December

first day of December 2011
yet the last day in CPU :(
it goes so fast, everything

today is a special day in my life
I did something, something very brave
and I've never thought that I could do it

at least during the last day, I let him know how I felt for all these time
and also get to know what, how, why, everything from him

I'm happy with it already, really :)
at least I know I'm not alone
and YOU'RE NOT ALONE TOO, remember!

but life always don't go in the way you want it to be
it's destiny, everything's fate

you asked me when it happened
I really don't know when did I fall
God brings you to me

just a little bit more
everything was so close...

I know you understand
and don't blame yourself, please
have some confident in yourself
cause I believe myself too

I understand myself very well
I know what I want
cause I found the right one

don't be sorry, don't apologize
and stop saying yourself mean or evil
I don't like it when you blame yourself, when you have no confident in yourself and most of all, when you suspect how's the one that I like, cause it's you
and I'll cry

I just like you
nothing else much
just everything

maybe all of these just came in a wrong time
to be honest, I'm not ready to get into a relationship too
but I like you, simple
sorry :(

and don't be sorry to me
it's not your fault
it was my choice

I won't do it in purpose to forget about you
cause I think for this time I can't force myself
maybe I can in the future? just 100% not so fast
remember? I'm a very patient person
just let it be

I don't blame anyone
I'm just sad that when I found the right one and I know I can share everything with him
but he's just a passenger :'(

I'll look further in my life
and uni life
I'll come back, to visit you
I hope one day maybe you'll realize more about me

we are still friends, definitely :D haha

God makes me see you
not only for a second, even it was only a second
sorry cause I won't forget

and sorry for disturbing you all these time

thanks for everything
it actually makes my life better
thanks for being honest to me
just thanks, please take care
you are a good guy, really good guy
I'm just not good enough to deserve you in no matter what way/s
and make sure you find a better one okay :)
or else I'll whack you

thanks, again.
I don't know I need to say this how many times
thank you :)





I'll miss you.

Last day of class..

Dear Diary,

Tmr will be the last day of my classes in CPU

I don't know how much I will miss this place

the lecturers, every single spot in ECA and the classrooms

the STUDIO

the CPU-ians

even the cleaners

I'll miss everything and everyone in CPU

it's only a year that I've stay in CPU

a year full with memories

and also

the memories with him

I saw him this morning

I don't know why my heart is still beating so fast

I told myself to forget everything

but whenever I see him smile, I'm happy

even better if that smile is for me

I'm such a bitch right? I just can't do whatever I promised myself

and now college is ending so soon

I don't know what to do

or maybe what can I do?

I've thought of telling him everything

but I just can't do it

I don't have the courage

I'm so sorry, I'm just afraid of falling

or maybe

I should just leave everything alone

maybe I will feel better

by the way

finals are coming up

study hard, STUDY SMART :)

lucks peeps :D

all the best :D

GAR YAO AHHHH !!!