-Live your Life-

1.1.2012 :)

2012-01-01T06:05:00.000-08:00

Hey peeps, it's the first day of 2012

and I'm back from Taiwan :D !!

I'm falling sick :\ guess it's because of the weather changes

It's quite cold in Taiwan, and then Malaysia is really hot

that makes me fell sick

having a high fever, but I still can't skip the countdown with my beloved friends :)

I celebrated Christmas with my family in Taiwan

It's really memorable

and I think when you are in another country, your family is always the one that you can depend on

It feels really good when you can depend on someone and be a kid just for a moment

then during 31.12.11

My friends and I went to Anys' house for her housewarming and of course -> COUNTDOWN :D !!

most of us overnight there

and we all slept around 6-7am =__= It's kinda crazy LOL

Before 12am, we went to a park and the lake there is really nice

During 12am, we wished each other a Happy New Year :D !!

We watched the fireworks together, happily together :)

No words can describe the feeling when you are with your friends

You know, for me, I really love the moment when all of us are together, EVER SINCE I BORN

then, we made a crazy decision

We ran in to MCDONALS

and we shouted Happy New Year !

then... an awkward silent..

It's so embarrassing.. yet insane

BUT STILL, *there's always a BUT*

I'm loving it :P hahahah

So now, my new year resolution:

(1.) Must keep dancing and improve as much as I can

(2.) Must study harder and smarter cause I don't want to disappoint my parents AGAIN

(3.) Must LOSS WEIGHT !!!

(4.) Forget about him, I'll try my best, and I accepted the truth, but things that happened are always there; when it happens, means you can't change it, the only way is to accept and hold the pain.

(5.) Learn to express my feelings, to my friends, and also my family; I'm not a person that know how to show my emotions or feelings or whatsoever, so sometimes people always misunderstand me and I don't know how to explain to them.

(6.) Love my family and friends. <3

Things that I want to apologize in year 2011:

(1.) I'm sorry that I can't get a good results like the others.

(2.) I'm sorry that sometimes I left out some of my friends, cause actually I'm a cold person, as in sometimes I just want to be quite, so don't misunderstand me, I'm really sorry..

(3.) I'm sorry that I have been giving you pressure about my feelings, simply because of my own benefits, Sorry that I've made you feel really bad, I didn't expect that would happen, You're a nice guy, but sometimes when you keep the truth from me it would only hurt more in the future, and I'm sorry that I've been giving you troubles and there's always rumors, Sorry for disturbing you for all the time, I'm just sorry.. but we are still friends right :) ? haha Thanks.

and so

these are all the things that I want to say

Thanks to everyone that accompanied me throughout the whole year and also those who appeared in my life during 2011 :) <3

It really made my college life fabulous :)

I love 2011 , but still need to let it go

Let the pain flow with 2011; Remember all the happiness that happened; Be grateful for what you have right now; Learn to appreciate everything and everyone; Love your friends and family.

Hi 2012 :)

Be nice to me , and I'll love you more than 2011, okay ?

TDC CHRISTMAS PARTY :D !!

2011-12-23T08:38:00.000-08:00

I'M REALLY EXCITED

SO I THINK I WILL TYPE EVERYTHING LIKE THIS HAHAHA

IT HAS BEEN A LONG TIME FOR US TO GATHER TOGETHER

WE WERE WAITING FOR SO LONG FOR THIS PARTY

AND ITS TODAY :D 23.12.11 !!!

OWH AND JUST IN CASE SOME OF YOU DON'T KNOW

TDC = TAYLORS' DANCE CLUB <3 <3

IAN CAME BACK FROM U.S

PENNY IZZY CAROLYN NIC AND EVERYONE CAME BACK

I'M JUST REALLY EXCITED TO SEE THEM AGAIN

CAUSE I'LL NEVER KNOW WHEN IS THE NEXT TIME FOR ME TO SEE THEM AGAIN :'(

IT HAS BEEN A LONG LONG NIGHT

A NIGHT WITH LAUGHTER, SCREAMING, SHOUTING, EXCITEMENT, JOY, CRAZINESS AND WHAT SO EVER

ITS TDC !! COME ON !

NOTHING CAN BE MORE CRAZY THAN THIS

JUST 1 THING, 1 MORE THING

I CAN'T OVERNIGHT THERE T___T

IT'S JUST SIMPLY SAD CAUSE CANNOT STAY LONGER TO HAVE FUN WITH THEM

I KNOW I MISS EVERYTHING T___T SHOOT ME.

BUT ANYWAY

I'M REALLY HAPPY THAT CAN STILL SEE EVERYONE AGAIN

THE FEELINGS ARE LIKE.. WE ALL CAME BACK TOGETHER :)

PPL ALWAYS ASK, WHY DO YOU JOIN TDC?

I ALWAYS ANSWER THEM, " ITS NOT ONLY A CLUB, IT'S A FAMILY, OR EVEN MORE THAN THAT :) <3 <3

I DON'T KNOW HOW TO DESCRIBE IT ALREADY

TOO MUCH FEELINGS AND THINGS TO DESCRIBE

SO YEAH

TODAY IS A VERY MEANINGFUL NIGHT

I SHALL REMEMBER TODAY FOREVER

TDC WILL NEVER DIES

I'VE NEVER REGRET FOR JOINING THIS CLUB UNTIL NOW

THANKS FOR THE LOVE FROM EVERY TDC MEMBERS

LOVE ALL OF YOU TOO :D !!! <3

-TDC-TDC-TDC-TDC-TDC-TDC-

Officially graduated :D !!

2011-12-15T07:58:00.000-08:00

Today, 15.12.11 is the most memorable day in my life
I'm officially graduated from CPU :D !!!!
*screams*

I don't know where should I start to describe
I'm just way too excited xD

Today my parents came
I thought they would be very busy but at least they still come :)
HAPPY NUFF ! hehehe

the best part is
TAKING PICTURES WITH MY FRIENDS
LOTS AND LOTS OF FRIENDS !! :D <3 <3

cause Picture is the only thing that can keep our memories
I took a lot
I just wonder where is it now HAHAHA

It was really fun and happy and sad too
I will be missing CPU so much :'(
It's like.. THE BEST COURSE EVER PUHHLISS
nothing can replace it

and then my friends and I went for a movie
then we just crap around and doing stupid stuff lol
but you know
only closer friends can do stupid stuff together
SO YEAH hahaha

I love today
I love my friends my parents and CPU !! :D
but most of all
We Love Each Other :3

THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING IN CPU
IRREPLACEABLE MEMORIES :)

I shall leave with joy :')

Love ALL OF YOU, EVERY SINGLE ONE
Keep in touch, Take care
Don't forget everything that happened :')

LOVE AGAIN <3 !!!!!

The movie ends.

2011-12-09T06:22:00.000-08:00

Life is like a drama or maybe a movie

Different things that hurt, make you happy or sad
whether you like it or not, it still happens
it's either a long-term or short-term effect to yourself

Today is 9th December 2011
last day of all the exams in CPU
my friends and I went to college
we talked and played

I'm really happy that we could still gather together for one last time
nobody knows what will happen in the future
same to me

today I realized how much I like a person
cause my heart still beats fast whenever I see him
and I smile, more charming than usual
I told him everything, again

I'm happy yet sad
actually I still got a lot of things not yet tell you, A LOT
I wanted to tell
but I didn't manage to tell you :'(

things end
everything is over, I guess
I'll remember today, too
I'm a bit sensitive to the person that I like
I will remember the moment that we hugged
it meant more than you thought to me at that moment
and I struggled
I controlled it until you left
I teared.

for me, it's like the end
don't think that we are going to meet so soon
when will be the next time for us to meet each other?
I wondered.

find another guy?
I'll see how things go
cause I don't think I will find one so soon
I'm bored of guys, and tired

so..really have to farewell now
if possible, Remember me
cause I'll remember you :)

to the person that I like,
Goodbye :')

first day of December

2011-12-01T06:05:00.000-08:00

first day of December 2011
yet the last day in CPU :(
it goes so fast, everything

today is a special day in my life
I did something, something very brave
and I've never thought that I could do it

at least during the last day, I let him know how I felt for all these time
and also get to know what, how, why, everything from him

I'm happy with it already, really :)
at least I know I'm not alone
and YOU'RE NOT ALONE TOO, remember!

but life always don't go in the way you want it to be
it's destiny, everything's fate

you asked me when it happened
I really don't know when did I fall
God brings you to me

just a little bit more
everything was so close...

I know you understand
and don't blame yourself, please
have some confident in yourself
cause I believe myself too

I understand myself very well
I know what I want
cause I found the right one

don't be sorry, don't apologize
and stop saying yourself mean or evil
I don't like it when you blame yourself, when you have no confident in yourself and most of all, when you suspect how's the one that I like, cause it's you
and I'll cry

I just like you
nothing else much
just everything

maybe all of these just came in a wrong time
to be honest, I'm not ready to get into a relationship too
but I like you, simple
sorry :(

and don't be sorry to me
it's not your fault
it was my choice

I won't do it in purpose to forget about you
cause I think for this time I can't force myself
maybe I can in the future? just 100% not so fast
remember? I'm a very patient person
just let it be

I don't blame anyone
I'm just sad that when I found the right one and I know I can share everything with him
but he's just a passenger :'(

I'll look further in my life
and uni life
I'll come back, to visit you
I hope one day maybe you'll realize more about me

we are still friends, definitely :D haha

God makes me see you
not only for a second, even it was only a second
sorry cause I won't forget

and sorry for disturbing you all these time

thanks for everything
it actually makes my life better
thanks for being honest to me
just thanks, please take care
you are a good guy, really good guy
I'm just not good enough to deserve you in no matter what way/s
and make sure you find a better one okay :)
or else I'll whack you

thanks, again.
I don't know I need to say this how many times
thank you :)

I'll miss you.

Last day of class..

2011-11-30T01:27:00.001-08:00

Dear Diary,

Tmr will be the last day of my classes in CPU

I don't know how much I will miss this place

the lecturers, every single spot in ECA and the classrooms

the STUDIO

the CPU-ians

even the cleaners

I'll miss everything and everyone in CPU

it's only a year that I've stay in CPU

a year full with memories

and also

the memories with him

I saw him this morning

I don't know why my heart is still beating so fast

I told myself to forget everything

but whenever I see him smile, I'm happy

even better if that smile is for me

I'm such a bitch right? I just can't do whatever I promised myself

and now college is ending so soon

I don't know what to do

or maybe what can I do?

I've thought of telling him everything

but I just can't do it

I don't have the courage

I'm so sorry, I'm just afraid of falling

or maybe

I should just leave everything alone

maybe I will feel better

by the way

finals are coming up

study hard, STUDY SMART :)

lucks peeps :D

all the best :D

GAR YAO AHHHH !!!

symptoms?

2011-11-20T11:03:00.000-08:00

I always hear people say

when you are in love with someone

whenever you see his name or maybe he's online
or maybe just thinking his name
his face his smile or any single little tiny thing

YOU WILL SMILE
LIKE THIS :D <<

and you will never realize !
I actually wondered did I smile like that before?

last time maybe no
but now I guess YES

he can makes me smile like no one else does
he doesn't needs to love me
we can just be friends

as long as we are still talking to each other
it's more than enough

last time I thought it wasn't enough
I tried to ask for more
and I think I might annoyed him, who knows?

but now
I've changed my thoughts

actually
loving someone means that
by seeing him smiles happily
living through everyday with joys
you will be satisfied

at least that's what I felt for now

maybe in the future I change my mind
who knows again :P ? hahahaha !

anyways
don't ask me who is that guy
cause I won't tell
hehehehee

*prays* for him

and take care people :)

loves*

inspiring much.

2011-11-10T20:32:00.000-08:00

people always say

time can prove everything and everyone

I see him

I know him more day by day

we talk, we communicate

I understand more about him

himself, his thought towards other people, and his opinion on things

but for now

actually I want to concentrate on my studies first

the reason why I keep thinking about him

is.. specifically I don't know why too HAHAHHA

I guess I'll just leave things to be like that

seeing him quietly from the side

seeing him smile

knowing that his life and studies are going on well

he's healthy

he's happy

and I'm happy =)

and now

I'll concentrate and give a best shot to my finals

wish me lucks =) and you guys too.

ALL THE BEST :D !!

happy halloween :D !!

2011-11-03T09:44:00.001-07:00

okay I know it's a bit late

but still, HAPPY HALLOWEEN :D !

hope you guys had some fun during halloween last week :)

by the way, hmmm
my college life is still the same :\

but it's coming to the end
I'm graduating on December 15th, can't believe that time flies so fast :'(

tests, quizzes, assignments, whatever, still a lot to do
trying hard to score as high marks as I can
I expect myself to improve and not be liked last time keep procrastinating

well, true, it's stress, very stress
but what to do, life kan :\ ?
I know many of you guys are the same as me
so yea, try to find something, some way or SOMEBODY to relax a bit kay :D

AND AND
I'm going to meet with my PRIMARY+SECONDARY SCHOOL FRIENDS NEXT WEEK
CAN'T WAIT FOR THAT DAY TO COME

miss you guys so much :')

REMEMBER ME KAY HAHAHAH

take care everyone :)

-do everything you want, for yourself-

November.

2011-10-27T13:02:00.000-07:00

November is coming so soon
I'm having a week of holiday now
with loads of works

everything is going normal now
physically and mentally
all fine

just need to put more effort to my studies so i won't disappoint any of my parents

I'm going to graduate this december
Rmb to see me graduate kay :D

and take care my friends :)
hope all of you are doing fine right now
take care and contact me okay :)
keep in touch .

*loves <3

the road.

2011-08-31T11:50:00.000-07:00

actually
it has been some time that
i think i lost myself

is like
the one that u see right now
is actually not me

i like the me when i was with you
it's just me

but after that
something's going wrong

i relied too much on you last time
and the effect is
i suddenly lost myself

i got no direction
i don't know where to go
i don't know what should i do
i don't know whether the things that i'm doing are right or wrong
i don't know i should eat this or not
i don't know i should take taxi or bus
i don't know what should i wear every day

I JUST DON'T KNOW EVERY SINGLE THING

i have been too dependent on someone at my really first time

the scar that he made
actually is still here, right in my heart
i actually thought i'm fine already
but by time passed things happened
i realized every thing is still the same

i've been putting too much effort last time
the blood, the sweats and the tears
who will understand more than me

i need some help
bring me back to the right track
pleasee.

holiday :)

2011-08-27T11:39:00.000-07:00

having a week of raya holiday

i believe the others have too

many of my friends are going somewhere for their holiday

but me, stay at home and grow mushroom lah -.- LOL

this few weeks

many things happened

and yaa, i lost my phone, in da freaking cinema =.=

because i went to watch a movie with my friends in sunway

after that i only realized i left my phone there

and the moment went back to find it

it was no longer there -___-""

all the memories are gone

maybe it will be a good beginning for me to get a new life

many people said i should change a phone

so it wasn't actually a total bad thing

besides

yes i'm having lots of issues these days

people gossip, yes of course you can

but watch out ok, don't be too over

if you don't know a person, then tutup mulut ok ?

it's not good criticizing or back-stab bout people

you can always comment them and yes i will accept every single comment

but however

i just don't like it when the other person bothers bout other person's business

you can advice them counsel them

of course you can understand the fact and reality

but you can never feel it

so you shall never ever talk bout it anymore

i just feel bad these days

i know it wasn't my fault

but you know, i'm still the one that hurt somebody else

i never did this before

i wasn't feeling good after all

i just felt so bad

but i can't do anything to reduce the scar

i just hope everything will be fine to you

and also me

stay strong people

stay healthy

there's always a solving method for your problem

don't give up

*loves*

keep in touch :)

TDC :)

2011-07-31T00:46:00.000-07:00

29.07.11 & 30.07.11

were the days for TDC PRODUCTION :)
p/s: TDC = TAYLORS DANCE CLUB

it was really really really happy and glad to join TDC

i cant forget those days

we all make up, dress up together

we eat, we scream for each other, we cheer each other up

making up for guys too (HAHAHAHA)

and loads more

thank u for ppl who came to support this production

we all enjoy the stage, honestly

the moment we stepped up to the stage

all the ppl were looking at us

JUST US !

there were blood, sweats, smile and tears

but worth it !!

we put in effort and show it to ppl what we've done

*cries*

we made it !

WE DANCE WITH ALL OF OUR HEART

*spreaditout*

the voice and the clapsss

it was only for all of US

and the FINALE

all of us dance together

playing on the stage

the feeling was really great

i just love it when all of us are together

nothing more can describe this feeling

just tears

TDC is irreplaceable :) <3

we all shall keep this memory forever :3

*loves lots*

whatever

2011-07-22T09:28:00.000-07:00

okay basically
i just dont know wat title to put

and now
i need to let everyone of u know
THINK before u TALK

i know its your right to speak
but not like being sarcastic or teasing

learn to appreciate CAN ?
do u guys even know how hard ppl work on it?
ppl are trying so hard every single time
same to u guys
ITS JUST THAT THE STYLES ARE DIFFERENT

so what?
so they deserve such a shitty comment?
they shouldnt be appreciated?

learn to love something
not like only your thing is awesome

OR

if u dont really know bout our thing
THEN JUST SHUT UP PLEASE CAN ?

we are all dancing ppl
we all love to dance

thats just so sad when the others are trying to hard on the dance
but what they got its just a shitty stab by ppl that dont know bout it n them
that really hurts, seriously

IF ure not interested
just take a STEP n walk off can u ?

dance :3

2011-07-08T04:56:00.000-07:00

holidays right
i spent half of my time in the studio
just way too bored :| or else i oso dont know what to do LOL

and and
today i watched TRANSFORMERS III :D !!!
finallehhh LOL

it was pretty awesome
hmm should be SUPER AWESOME xD hahah
just love it :3
n theres a hot girl inside but i dont know the name, opps :X

besides
i think i like him :\
like confirmed .___.

but sometimes
u know right
liking or loving someone is very tough
way to tired with it

so im just thinking
maybe should let him goes
then both of us will feel better thou

not too much but controlling

hope it works n i can do it

good luck n gambateh for college ppl :D !!

back :D

2011-06-30T03:23:00.000-07:00

sorry for not updating my blog for such a long time
im just way too lazy XD haha
and there are too much that i dont know how to type it out :S
sorrehhh

so now
my final is over and
IM HAVING HOLIDAY NOW XD haha
damn good right
but sometimes.. too bored at home u know :(
grow mushroom at home everyday :3 ahah

hmm now, bout life huhh
nothing much difference i think

OH WAIT ! im kinda interested to a guy now :$
not like i dont dare to admit bout it
but the guy is just way too shy :( and not brave enough though

but if 1 day, he is brave enough to do "that" *u know what i know* haha

but now just depends lah
i dont really care bout it
studies are still more important :D haha
p/s: and dancing :3 hehehe

so how are u guys now :( ?
tell me bout your life oso ok?

fb me oso can XD hahah

im nice here :) nothing to worry bout
and i fat liao HAHAHHA

tata ppl :) love ya <3

end of 1st semester :(

2011-06-07T10:52:00.000-07:00

tmr will be the last day in this semester for CPU :(
but for one of my favourite subject
CHALLENGE and CHANGE in SOCIETY
today will be the last class

so we had a party in class
MS.SHELLEY told us a story

one of her student studied in VIETNAM
and passed away already :(

then she went to her student's funeral in Malaysia
her parents told Ms.Shelley
they found a paper in their daughter's purse
FULL OF COMMENTS

at this moments
Ms.Shelley's tears drop :'(

because every of her student
at the last day of her class
teacher will ask them to write comments to every of their classmates
and that paper is about THIS :'( *cryoutloud*

she cant believe that the student is still keeping it
and this made her felt so proud in her teaching life
she missed it and love it

and TODAY we did the same thing in class too
full of patient and emotional
then she read out some of the comments
and we all required to keep it forever :) sure we'll

and yes
we all hug each other and cried :'(

she's the best teacher that i never ever met
like a fren, like a mum in my life
but actually a teacher
awesome teacher ever <3

thank you for making me having such an awesome semester
thank you for giving me so many lessons and inspiration in my life
thank you for your kindness and everything

i shall never forget you
and we all love you <3
always the best teacher <3

OUR BELOVED TEACHER, MS.SHELLEY, LOVE YA <3

finally :)

2011-05-31T10:37:00.000-07:00

finally
i can take a deep breath
look out through the window

I FINISHED ALL MY ASSIGNMENTS AND PRESENTATION FOR THIS SEM :D !!
HURRAYYYYYYY
this is so right ! hahaha

and next week
will be having my finals
i really hope i can do well for this sem
i dont want to disappointing anyone
my parents and my lecturers
i love them :)

i learnt a lot throughout my course
i will never regret doing CANADIAN PRE U
this is so FUN :D <3

YES I AM STRESS
HUBER STRESS
but slowly i get used to it already
and i still have to do it right ? haha

and i think all of my frens entered college right?
most of them are in TARC :'(
i MUST and i WILL make a gathering

i wanna meet everyone
*hugss* take care ppl
u know im praying
stay strong and dont forget me :D hahahah

love ya <3

know what?

2011-05-23T10:46:00.000-07:00

time fade
and they all changed
like lightning speed
that FAST

桃花依旧人面全非
以为至少可以在他心中留下那么一点回忆
“以为” 就是给自己希望希望是个好的结果

短短时间内
他变得好陌生

没有对与错只是不适合
只能怪自己
当初所有的决定都是自己决定的也不应该后悔

感谢大家
会坚强下去的
一起加油把 <3

opps =X

2011-05-14T08:33:00.000-07:00

sorrehhhh
busy with everything nowadayssss
so forgot to upate my blog :(

so lets see
my 1st sem is going end like it a month time
then i will be having a sem break :D
wheee~~

but tis month
is super duper tough
the assignments will be never stop torturing US
LOL

besides
im still busying with dance practice thingy
i really hope i can do well
i will try my best =)

and ppl always have a problem
or SOME problemS

everything happens for a reason
there must be something in it
so figure it out and solve
thats the only
not like complaining bout that everyday -.- LOL

and
I REALLY REALLY REALLY MISS MY HIGH SCHOOL FRENS
COME ON PPL
TAKE SOME TIME AND GATHER TOGETHER
PWETTY PLS :(
I WANT TO TALK TO U GUYS

kays
time to leave
take care ppl :)
*stay strong*

back to the past.

2011-05-05T19:53:00.000-07:00

every moment i pass through the area
no matter where is it

maybe is because we had too much memories
so wherever and whenever i am
the pictures still appear

everything was sweet
but now was bitter
i thought i can effort it
but seems like i need more time

those moment was tough
but i will still go through it
coz i know it was just a pretty first time
hmm i hope it was LOL

anyway
study is still the most important thing for me now
and also DANCING
love ya ppl~

*study hard*

over :)

2011-04-29T08:03:00.000-07:00

tis few days
i was busying practiced dancing for kpop
i think all of u know that i really really really do love kpop right :D
hahaha

i was kinda satisfied with the performance today
it was like..
better x10 than we practiced OMG
SO COOL !!! hahaah

thank u so much to our seniors
really alottttt

and i know because of tis
i missed out some of my homework and i need to catch up RIGHT NOW

i hope i can multitask
and i MUST learn to do it

wish me to be successful
and thanks again :D

i miss u you guysss
like.. really a lot :(

stay strong.

2011-04-17T08:09:00.000-07:00

stay strong.
thats wat i always tell myself
no one cannot live without anyone
i know i can
but sometimes
it's just tough for me
im trying hard, seriously

走在繁华热闹的街上看着落叶
我感觉到一丝丝的痛
好揪心好难过
因为我重新开始了一个人的生活

more and more stuffS..

2011-04-10T09:09:00.000-07:00

nowadays
more and more stuffs are coming to me

studies or watever

and i know i should concentrate on my studies
but sometimes
i just..u know -.- .. LOL

i dont know
i will just think bout that
hahah kinda funny i know
we were overrrrrrrrrrrr yeahhh :D

plsss
i need to get over tis
really
i need time
i need frens now more than everything

just let me do something for every second
i will forget bout everything
trust me

i can do it
seriously

thanks ppl . :')

complicated.

2011-04-06T23:14:00.000-07:00

the moment i entered college
i know im ready for everything
i know its difficult but im not afraid of them

but nowadays
theres too many problems
some ppl just like to make troubles
or maybe they just want to get some attentions
but however i dont think tis is the best way

i became lazy i think
YES I AM
i dont know why
i became lazier than last time LOL

i guess
theres oni 1 ppl that really know and understand the real me
yeaa thats better
sometimes i just dont like ppl to know more bout me
i dont want any of the sympathy
just dont feel good LOL

i want to be a strong girl
but i always fail to be

too much things come in a period
i cant confirm that which day i will fall

need a shoulder
just for a moment..
im tired of hanging the smile on my face everyday

maybe
shall let it be
just like that
yea cool in that way.

its over :D

2011-04-02T11:01:00.001-07:00

well
first OSSLT is over :D !!
finallyyy
i can like throw all those papers away
hahaha

fail or pass or wat i dont care lah
i dont want to think bout that now =.= LOL

and today
me emi ami gg and tien
went to putrajaya
to watch the wat F1 =.=
im not interested actually
but i wanted to go and have a look lah hahaha

anyway
we ended up like taking photos and lepak'ing oni
LOL hahaha

nvm lar
i still love the moment :)

and next monday
great
need to pass up assignmentS
homework file
rough copy of my essay
GOOD all come together
i tak takut ! -_______-

and nowadays
frens are like, much more important to me compare to last time
without them
i cant stand till today
thank u for everything my frens
u guys are so awesome

and no more worries kay
im fineee and i love all of u :D

i rmb the word that always appear in my mind
*STAY STRONG*

THANK U SERIOUSLY PPL :')

blind.

2011-03-28T04:24:00.000-07:00

everyone is blind when they are in love with someone else
whatever other ppl say, they will never listen
or they just cant understand
and this, is love.

but coz of this kind of love
it hurts, a lot
coz u will never know
when he or she will leave u alone there
and just fall for the other one
just so fast

i will be better if we werent more than frens

suffering at the corner
but ure flirting around with the other one with a big smile on your face
like i never appear in your life before

recalling whats going on last time between us
found out something stupid that i should know long time ago
lol, im like such a toy last time
i should have realise long time ago
but i always tell myself
"nnahhhh dont think too much"

and results today were
yeaa just like this

ure the one hurt like shit
but he doesnt give a damn shit caring bout u

controlling my tears everyday
coz i always tell myself
"dont cry, he doesnt worth for your tears"
but things always go the other way

should have know tis earlier n much more earlier
but it happened anyway
nothing to let u blame
no one to let u put the blame on

things happened
he is like that
and ure like this
just me n u

yeaa cool like that way

thats all.
leave me alone.
better in this way.

no good :(

2011-03-23T07:54:00.000-07:00

everyone got their SPM results today
this is so damn suck

i got 3As oni :(
shitttttttttttt

my mum was like
so dissapointed at me :(
but its over
i cannot say anything oso
its useless :(

haihh
stop asking my bout my results
im damn freaking sad already
like wanna bang wall

anyway
GRATS TO MY FRENS WHO GET A GOOD RESULTS
u guys are so damn awesome :) haha

n some of u
pleaseeee dont cry anymore :(
so sad weiii
we cannot do anything anymore

let it be
just like that

thanks ppl
n see u :D

im wrong.

2011-03-21T08:20:00.000-07:00

well i think i found out something

like i have been used
or became a toy of someone
just to let their time pass faster

ok i just have to say
ure so damn GENG
hide like nobody knows bout that
even me

but now i knew it
i cant believe that ure like that

we have been through so many things
no matter is a small one or big one
i will never forget anything
coz i appreciate everything in my life

but for u
our memories were like rubbish
maybe is not rubbish
is just not important for u
coz u got more n more than US

i know i should forget bout everything
but i just found out more n more wrong that i did
like im so damn wrong

ya i know i shouldnt say this
but i have to say
I REGRETTED
i still love, but i still regret
i dont know why

how come i feel like slapping u in tis moment
im a human too
i put in love
but got a damn shit back

okay then
i oso know that
we are now 2 ppl
no more US
kay i will leave everything alone
and i SHOULD

thanks ppl. i love u guys so much. thank u seriously.

事实上。。

2011-03-19T09:50:00.001-07:00

原来
我的心还会因为你而跳动。。

因为那一丁点的事情
让我变得面目全非狼狈不堪

我宁愿那一刻
你没有关心我
至少我会好过一点

拜托
请你以后都不要再关心我也不要再管任何关于我的事情

这是唯一复原的方法真的
我们。。真的结束了

i rather at that moment
we never talk
i should remain silent
but at last i didnt

thought that i can do it
but i failed
so FAIL

错的人

2011-03-17T09:51:00.000-07:00

“爱得太真爱容易让自己牺牲
太容易让自己沉沦
太容易不顾一切满身伤痕我太笨
明知道你是错的人明知道这不是缘分
但我还是奋不顾身“ -萧亚轩-

有时候人就是这样

明明知道已经不被珍惜
却依然执著义无反顾的付出
直到最后遍体鳞伤

曾经的熟悉必须变得陌生
所有的习惯必须让它消失

无力地蹲下颤抖地笑着说
-我们结束了-

对我们结束了
不应该再怀念过去
可是人就是犯贱喜欢回忆

充满欢笑泪水感动的回忆
让我无法轻易释怀我们之间的一切

努力的忍住眼泪
只是有时候喜欢切洋葱

不停的重复说没关系
会过去的

我需要时间

thank u so much ppl :)

2011-03-14T08:41:00.000-07:00

okay i think most of u know wats going on right

yes
IM SINGLE RIGHT NOW

i know what u guys are going to tell
dont worry
im fine now :)

i still need to survive right?
hahah and i still need to go for college

and i realised that
MY FRENS CARE BOUT ME SO MUCH
ARRHHH
*SO TOUCHED*

lots of phone calls and msgs
i can feel that all of u are worrying bout me
so dont worry pls
im seriously ok

this is what life means isnt it? hahaha

thank u for everything guys :)
all of u make me laugh like crazy
i know and i appreciate that alot seriously

i love you all so much :D
hearts yaa.

and i will be strong.

等待中

2011-03-12T02:15:00.000-08:00

你给我的都是等待验证着我们结局的那一天

现在我学会了压抑感情忍住眼泪
也只有这样每一天的每一分钟我才过得下去

两个人之间的感情
是每一天慢慢一点一滴累积下来的
有欢笑有泪水有愤怒也有感动

即使再累即是每一次再怎么失望
即使再怎么伤心再怎么心碎我都不想要轻言放弃
一切都是因为我爱你
如果是别人我绝对不会有这样的感受

不要缺了就找累了久换
要珍惜爱你的人和你爱的人
一切得来不易
世界上的每个俩个人的相遇都是缘分

freak out.

2011-03-10T01:16:00.000-08:00

something happened
no matter is in family college or love
everything seem so wrong
and go so wrongly

i just feel that
everything is changing
i know everything everyone DO CHANGE
but not this fast
and not changing in this way
and not be changed until like this

i just dont understand
whats wrong now actually ?
what happened to us ?

maybe both of us
we got our own problem
no matter is our personality or attitude or maybe our life style
i thought we could make it all together
but sometimes things just go worst than i thought

maybe im the wrong one
shouldnt believe everything at the really first second

but as long as i made the decision
i will not change it again

i just hope that
the worst im thinking right now wont happen
pls
coz i still need u
i just dont know how to express it out to u
hope that u can understand

and sometimes
i just dont want to talk
im just tired of college
not tired of u
pls dont misunderstand me
PLEASEE
and i still love you.

so sick =.=

2011-03-04T06:05:00.001-08:00

great great great
im so sick since wednesday
and today is friday ==
and i still not yet recover
so weird

flu sorethroat fever what oso got

even when i breath i oso feel so tough
when i sleep oso cannot sleep well
i want bath oso cannot
SWT................

i ate my medicine everyday
but then still not yet recover
whats wrong with me =.= ?
LOL. bless me -__________-

take care too guys
dont be like me
hahaha :D

it's so wrong :(

2011-03-03T04:26:00.001-08:00

i dont know why
seems like everything is gonig so so wrong

i skipped my advanced functions class twice
and i missed out the homework

then i got sick :(

then my frens cant get in to the audition
ps:they are a band :)

then i realized i really hate someone
shes A BITCH
really BITCHY :(
why this ppl is around me ?
screw her :(

haihh. college is killing me

ma li ma li~
i hope everything will go right from now on
or else
i scared i will go bang wall :(
hahaha.

ciao~
miss ya fwens :)

soooo not right :(

2011-02-28T08:06:00.000-08:00

this is soooo not right :(

college workS are ruing my life process T^T
i got NO FUN AT ALL !!

i miss my besties
my sista my brotha
and my DARLING T_T

who the hell in the world created homework O__O ?
LOL. shouting out with no voice. haha

anyway SPM results are coming out soon
wish me luck :P hahaha
but however it doesnt matter anymore
is just coz i care bout that

ppl nowadays like to do stupid things
sometimes we just dont know why
or sometimes just want to get attention from someone else? who knows. haha

welllll.
one of my gal frens, she likes a guy
she told him she loves him O__O so brave weii. *clap clap*

hope that they could be a couple. hahah :X
just a wish. since shes so brave. LOL

i miss samad :(
everyone is still having fun there right? haihh.
sad case -- nyeee.

byee guys :(
screwing my HW up right now.
see ya and miss u :)

college life =.=

2011-02-21T09:49:00.000-08:00

college life sucks -___-
can i say that ? LOL.

everyday homework homework
ah boh then assignmentS
or QUIZZES =.= u think im robot ah ?
students will feel tired too teacher
we need fresh airS too ==

nowadays
i felt really depressed
coz of college stuff
and my frens problem
i just hope that i can help her on wat shes suffering right now

n so far
because of college too !
im afraid that i got lesser time to communicate with my DARLING :(
how sad T.T
but i know u will understand right :) ? hehee.

besides
wish that my frens in da camp are all safe now :)
guess theyre having fun
hahaha

bless me -___-
for da COLLEGE
ITS CRAZY u KNOW ?!
okay. thats all.
time to bed.

nites world :)

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY :D

2011-02-14T11:16:00.000-08:00

guess wat ? its VALENTINE'S DAY :D
wheeeeeee~

of course today
i celebrated with my boy
after his school
we went to sunway together to celebrate :D

just watched a movie(green hornet)quite nice :)
and eat, jalan jalan oni

and yeaaaaa
he gave me a big BEAR :D
hahaha im happy with that u know
seriously i love it :)
thank u thank u thank u so much darling :D heheheheeeeeee.

then, i gave him a SHIRT :D
just hope that he will like it
hehee

so on and so far
i saw lesbian & gay =.=
damn CHUNTED lor =____= *clap clap*
anyway this is an open minded century already
hahaha

so soo
i really love that bear :)
heheheeeee
thank u ♥♥♥♥

and HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY TO ALL MY FRIENDS :D ~~ ♥♥
no matter u are single or taken
have fun with your life kay :) miss yaaa ~

crazy nite :S

2011-02-11T07:26:00.000-08:00

ytday is a day that hokkien ppl pray for their god

my parents invited their frens
and so as i :P few ppl oni hahah

but actually
it was really interesting
coz its a tradisional day for me

i love the day every year :)
coz many ppl come here
we gather together chitchatting playing together and more..
just very happy :D

12am we prayed
and we were crazy till 2++ -___-
they have to went back but not my parents frens

they went back probably 6++AM ~!!
this is so not normal lor..ahahah

but anyway
i slept at 4++AM
woke up at 6++ to bath and prepare to go to college ==

haihhh.
wat a bigbig panda eyes on my face lor.. damn sad

so guys
im doing well in my college i think
but is really really stress
seriously im tired
eventhough it started for 1month+ =.= LOL

wish me luck kay :P
and u guys too :)
pls take care and keep in touch :D
buai buai ~~

CNY =D

2011-02-04T09:40:00.000-08:00

now is the 2nd day of CNY
tis 2 days
im like..keep gambling
omg. is like a tradision ! hahahha

and u know
i keep winning :D
like previous year !
wheeeeeee~~~~~~

and then tis year
got abit boring
coz i didnt go back to my hometown :(
damn it

n is really a short time for CNY
most of my frens got no time to visit each other
how sad :( no angpau lor !

nvm. anyway
i still win lots of money
n pls pls
come to my house if u guys are okay :D
hahah

once again
HAPPY CNY :D ~~

new year eve :D

2011-02-01T22:19:00.001-08:00

it's new year eve today :D

everyone is going back to their hometown
but tis year
im not going back to taiping :(
how sad..no laksa..no cendol :(

most of my frens oso going back to their hometown
so im not going to meet with them
means..
i will be really boring tis year T.T OH NO.

sooo
anyone wants to come my house just come :D
im willing to serve them XD but not taking angpau from me OK ? hahaha

pls come lar
im really bored u know :(

anyway
finally i can wear my cny clothes already :D
yeahhhhhhh~

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR EVERYONE :D
have fun okay :)~
take care ~

happy birthday darling :)

2011-01-29T05:33:00.000-08:00

its JAN 29th
my boy's birthday :)
hahah

the really first time i baked a cake
i hope that the cake taste ok >< AHAHA
super thanks to JON for teaching me :D

we just went to sunway
walk walk
and we watched SHAOLIN :D
quite nice leh. hahah

he said
my cake got abit sour :(
but i dont know why leh..haihh :( sorry

so so
we went to take sticky photo oso
i felt so strange actually
it has been so long for the previous time i played with tis
hahaha

anyway
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DARLING :)
i love you :) heheheee

city survival skills.

2011-01-25T02:51:00.000-08:00

today taylors prepared a CITY SURVIVAL SKILLS WORKSHOP for the students.

its really useful
like, super useful.
especially for GIRLS.

they told us
how to protect ourselves
how to prevent
how to recognise good&bads
and most probably how to be brave and dont be panic
try to calm down EVERYTIME

seriously
we looked at lots of examples today
some were really disgusting
but oso felt pity for them
they didnt do anything wrong
but they have met the worst thing in their life
RAPIST !!!

so hard to be forgiven.
plenty of examples today
that really scared us
lots of things that we dont know

so GIRLS
BE BRAVE
LOVE YOURSELF
PROTECT YOURSELF
AND FIGHT FOR YOUR LIFE !!

PS:pls go buy a pepper spray :D and it must be liquid in it but not gaseous or aerofoil. LOL.

take care everyone, seriously.

day by day..

2011-01-21T05:59:00.000-08:00

day by day
im getting biasa of college life

kinda fun
thought it will be relax
but not -.-

cause i started to have homework already..gosh

the really first time i wrote an article in 20mins
cause teacher limited the time =.= omg. damn crazy.

n then
nowadays
im fine with my boy :)
we are getting better and better
we will be together as long as we can
ahaha i love you :)

new life =)

2011-01-18T01:32:00.001-08:00

it was the 2nd day in my college but the first day of class.

it was fun actually :D haha
and i found out that
maths..was..kinda difficult u know :S oh god.

and i love change and challenge in society class :D
thats wat i called AMAZING ! hahah

besides
i met some new friends too
like international friends oso, LOL
we are 1 malaysia right? haha

those teachers are funny
i love it when the whole class is joking around XD hahah

but i still feel abit uncomfortable in the college
anyway its still a new place a new environment for me
new faces too.

i will try my best
and get myself at home there. HAHAHA

lastly
i got not much time like last time to watch drama :( !!!!
how sad u know ?!

nvm nvm.
guess i will be panda again. haha

see ya guys.
keep in touch :)

holiday ended :(

2011-01-16T04:41:00.000-08:00

okay.
i enrolled to taylors college.

going to study CANADIAN PRE-U.
tmr is the first intake.
gonna start my class.

haihh. im not ready lar :(
i want holiday...............
hhahahha

anyway
tmr is just orientation
i will try to make myself relax. HAHHHA

i know some of my frens going to join me in taylors

come on :D
im waiting~ hahaha

wish me luck in the new life.
hehee :)

i miss u all :(

special day =)

2011-01-09T07:12:00.000-08:00

ermm today is a special day for me

the first day
early in the morning
i made SUSHI :D

okay u know it.
its for someone special
ngek ngek~~

woke up dang early 6++am
9++gao dim
12++ went out

u know
im super tired :(
i dont even have enough sleep

but i know
its worth enough :D hahaha

i dont mind to be tired
i just hope that u will be happy

and..
luckily..
my SUSHI can eat right :D ? AHAHAH

pleasee..i really made it very difficult :(

sign.

2011-01-07T07:36:00.000-08:00

something bad happened tis few days

i rather i dont know anything
sometimes shouldnt be perceptive

trust is really important for a couple

i thought that we had been better and better
but the god just made something happened

it was you
ure forgiven
coz i still love you

maybe i got wrong too
情人眼里容不下一粒沙子
i just dont know y i became like this
couldnt be kind like last time

so sorry
i just hope that in the future
u wont make the same mistakes again
those things that i told u was true

we promised each other right ？
thankiu and i love you ♥

busy busy :S

2011-01-05T23:15:00.000-08:00

nowadays
im busy for my license
college..and shopping..hahaha

so seldom update my blog
sorry guys.

hmmm..
and hor
i realised that
i cant be kind nowadays

i just dont know why
isit just to u only or..?

i changed already, maybe.
sorry i just dont know why i cant be kind like last time
is abit tiring u know
sometimes human just need some rest.

happy new year :D

2011-01-02T07:37:00.000-08:00

and now
is new year :D
01.01.11
wat a number. haha

that day
i countdown at home with my frens
damn siao -__- LOL.

n then
good luck to my frens that in their NS CAMP
i really gonna miss u guys :'(
but wat to do.. haihh

just take care and all the best :D have fun.

hmmm.. and..
i gonna find a job soon in midvalley
just dont know when yet. haha

anyway
school gonna start tmr
good luck to those who are going to school tmr :P hahah
i gonna sleep at home HAHAHAHA

gambateh bah :)

MERRY CHRISTMAS fellows :D

2010-12-24T10:24:00.000-08:00

firstly
CHRISTMAS EVE
i celebrated with my darling :)
hehee suprised right ?
his off on that day. hahah

n then at the night
me wj ms jy mel jon ccs cy saihen ws cw
went to sunway there to countdown for christmas

u know actually
i dont want to play the spray for this year seriously ==
but the WMS !
he pakat with all of them ==
u gonna pay for it brother ! u knew wat u did !

okay
anyway
2010 christmas eve i celebrated with my love one :)
hehee. thank u i love you :D ♥♥

and sure thanks to my frens too :D
u know im mad that time seriously ==
but fine....nvm.......
forget bout it
a good memory :) thanks ♥
keep in touch.
i hope we can still always meet in the future

and the most important thing is

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE :D ~
have fun kay `~
dont waste your time at home duhh
hahah love yaa :) ♥♥

holiday :)

2010-12-18T08:39:00.000-08:00

as u know
im having holiday now

but actually is kinda boring :(

anyway today
i went to see my boy's competition :)
hehee.

is not your fault
u tried
and u know why
its over now
dont think bout it already ok :D

and then
i missed out the education fair today im mv -.-
hope that i can go tmr
just go walk walk
AHHAHA

guys
have fun :D
happy holiday :D

lets get the party start :D ~ !!!!

2010-12-14T09:33:00.000-08:00

and now
finally the last paper was over :D !!
spm is over for me ! hahaha

anyway today the chinese paper
quite difficult wei -.-
i know i shouldnt think bout that ahhah.

okay guys.
its time for us to have some fun :D

come onnnnnnnnnnnnn !
lets go sing k and shopping XD
or watever lah
HAHAHAH

good luck and have fun XD

NARNIA (3) ~

2010-12-10T06:30:00.000-08:00

today went to midvalley
with mel phoebe they all
we watched NARNIA3 :D

i still rmb
the first one was super duper nice
the 2nd one got abit boring
but this time the 3rd one counted as..not bad :D
hahah

at least i dont feel that boring compared with the 2nd
HAHAHA

just go and watch. LOL

nowadays got sooo many movies to watch
but i still got 1 paper --> chinese :D
anyway i dont care XD
hahaha

i will go for some movie before n after :P
muahahah

date me date me XD

almost end..

2010-12-08T06:56:00.000-08:00

today was the 2nd last paper, bio
but for me
im already in a holiday mood :D
i dont know why. hahah

anyway most of the ppl finish their papers.
wheeeeeee~

u know.
i gonna miss my secondary life so much :(

miss those things in our school around our school
miss those faces that i have met
miss those teachers that had thought me so many things
my secondary school life was fu-filled with rainbow colours
i love them :)
haiyoo feel like crying :'( ...

feel so warmed
coz there were so much memory in my secondary school
happy sad hyper watever lah. LOL

i dont want to forget :(
and i wont forget :D

promised, in the future,
we shall meet again :D ?
heheheee.

there isnt a full stop yet.
coz i still got CHINESE PAPER ! :(

anyway
all the best the future ya my frens :)
i love u all :)

hello my frens :)

2010-12-03T21:58:00.000-08:00

sorry for being "outdated" for so long. haahha

u know right ? spm is still going on.
im busy of studying.
that time, im crazy of addmaths and phys =.=
swtt.

but now..
is time for bio..
how sad is it :(
lets just hug the book and sleep :D
good idea? hahaha

n then..
anything bout KPOP or activities gathering watever
i dont even know one -.-
coz of SPM !! u .. :( !!!
haihh lets wait..
it will over very soon.

by the way
those NS BATCHES are out now.
lots of my frens KENA.
WAIWAI SUM CKUAN MAY and many many lah
all oso got in :(
3 months leh.. so long :(

let me know which batch u are in
we shall have the farewell part :D heheheee.

anyway
nowadays im quite ok with him.
time can change anything prove everything.
i know he understand.
we both know. i love u :)

hii world :D

2010-11-25T07:58:00.000-08:00

finally at least i got some fresh air.

today..sej exam..
haihhhhhhhh..
thats wat i can say :(

i did really bad
super bad.

should be an E or even a G this time.
haihh..so sorry T___T

anyway we should look forward.
i gonna try really hard for addmaths n phys paper
wish me luck :D
and good luck to my frens :) u all can do it :D
all the besttttt~ heheee.

SPM ><"

2010-11-21T07:36:00.000-08:00

okay SPM is coming really really soon :(

haihh.
i just hope i can do well
im tired of seeing those BOOKS lah -___-

u know wat ?
i really cant do BIO..oh god.

n then
just good luck to everyone.

try your best dont give up kay :D

gambateh~
jia u bah :D all the best :) !!!

study time :S

2010-11-17T05:11:00.000-08:00

okay.
spm is really really close now.

ermm
actually i cant believe that ytday i studied SEJARAH =.=
hahahah
but i oni read that little -__- haih.
nvm i will try my best.

by the way
i still got my DEAR BIOLOGY =.=
wish me luck for that.
cause until now i not yet even touch my bio book @@ gosh.

good luck my frens :)
we can do it together :D
wheeeee~♥ gambateh XD

选择忍让是为了好好相处却让你一而再再而三地犯错。
自己的骄傲不见了
从前那个自信的自己已经不再属于自己的了。

困惑

2010-11-15T07:50:00.000-08:00

尽管他对那女生的爱已经过去了
可是还是让我些酸酸的妒嫉

因为他不曾那样对我
原本以为他从不会那些东西
可以是甜言蜜语可以是无私的奉献可以是不计较
原来我错了

是不是初恋的时候说完了
下一个就没有了？

男生是不是因为是初恋念念不忘
是不是第一次的时候付出了那么多
下一次就失去了那份悸动？

曾经试图给她所有的一切
为了她做了那么多

难道下一个就没有哪个资格拥有吗？

一个会为女生哭泣的男生
就证明了他爱过就那么一次
恋爱就是那么一次而已
那一次轰轰烈烈印象深刻

下一个他无心了或许是长大了或许是变了
其实人的心里都住着一个小孩
偶尔的幼稚可以让感情增温不需要在你心上人面前伪装

或许你以为那一次我没有吗？
我只是不要提起
因为我知道只要一提起你会很失落

能避免的我都避免了

只是有时候我不喜欢隐瞒
我都会问清楚
我知道有些事情可以不问的就不要问

可是只要时间久了就会慢慢有一层膜
问题就会越来越多了你不是应该很清楚才对吗

没关系这一次就让我来吧

既然选择了我就会去努力维持这一切
毕竟一段感情得来不易

谢谢你 :)

party :D

2010-11-12T07:26:00.000-08:00

yeap today i went to school
miracle right -.- ?

know why ?
cause got PARTY for our class XD
ahahha

today counted as our last day in school
i gonna miss my high school life so much

i miss the class
i miss those FACES in class
i miss the teachers there
i just miss everything in the school.

n we took really lots of photos for today :D

ermm.
just go to my facebook and see if u want XD
hahah.

anyway
spm..is so so near
i cant believe that =.= HAHAHA

study smart and hard my friends :)
we shall have more fun after that.
good luck and + oil :D ~~

korean bbq :)

2010-11-10T07:10:00.000-08:00

heheee.
today went to one of the korean restaurant in taman desa to celebrate choo's belated birthday :D

there were me ms hw ch mel ws ccs
although only 7ppl
but we still have fun u know :D

coz our KING MS was there XD !
HAHAHAHA.

all the way
we were talking n laughing like crazy -.-
hmmmm.. time passed abit too fast :(
hahah.

and..
we ate toooo much today :S
im super full actually =.= GOSH. hahah

anyway
we had lots of fun for today.
a new experience :)

we will still meet each other right ;)
hahah.

love ya my frens :) ~

thats too over..

2010-11-07T09:49:00.001-08:00

dont u think
thats a little..abit..too over for this time ?

你做事情总是没有想到后果
也没有想到其他人的感受

强烈的自尊心不服输的个性
让你稍微走上了歪路

以前的你不是这样的
为什么现在个性却变了？
是因为环境的关系？
朋友的关系？
还是我的错？

这个好像不是我当初认识的你
种种原因让我看清了你

或许这本来就是你
只是从前我并不知道

我好像不认识你了

battleground XD

2010-11-05T12:17:00.000-07:00

today went to sunway to watch battleground.

it was sooo damn hot ==
im sweating all the time
n standing for so long oni can sit T.T

from 2pm im waiting until 6++ or 7++
crazy ==
but it was really interesting :D
better than watching in the tv -.-
hahah XD

there are still quarter final tmr.
i gonna go there again i think
i just love dancing so much :) heheeee.

by the way,
i saw the BIG CHONGCHONG- INSECT LIM ==
allahhhh,
thank u lor. i know liao de lah. hahah
and the porridge money i will pay back to u ==
u better dont try to dont accept
i will kill u.
coz i dont want to owe ppl money okay -.- ?

ermm..
then night time 10.
the SOH QUEEN-MELINDA N FEIZAI-MSUM N OUR SPECIAL GUEST-CHOOHONG
4 of us went to bah kut teh ==
siao siao right ?

anyway
this is choo hongs first time :P
so we decided to stay longer. HAHAHA.

quite a happy day.
i love it.
full of things to do XD
for me i mean -.- LOL.

tata fellowss~

thanks :)

2010-11-02T08:03:00.000-07:00

things have been getting more worst.

u know why.
but i hope u understand why too.
please.
this is the last last last time.
no more okay ?
im really serious.
or else,
we shall only talk after my SPM.

thanks to my frens again.
i understand that.

study gang.
come on~
teach me sejarah :D ~!!
hahaha

shit happened.

2010-11-01T11:51:00.000-07:00

i dont know how to tell the whole thing.

how come there can be sooo many things happened in all this time ?

i dont know how to say.
is like u are not trying to tell me.
i still know the reasonS.

but just WHY WHY AND WHY ?

u know why. u know y im like this.
just ask yourself.

i had been thinking all this time.
isit my problem or wat ?
hoo.. i still dont know.

besides, as an addition
i really cant feel that u do care bout me
like wat u said ? LOL.
thats just few sentences.

my buddies--
i know SPM is coming
is STUDY TIME.

i got study
so dont worry kay :)
i separate it very well.

thanks for concerning.
i know u all care bout me.
i love u guys too :)
thank u so much.

and i know wat to do
how to handle it.
thank u :)

complicated.

2010-10-31T09:03:00.000-07:00

there some problems between me and u.

yea thats right
just a little thing
but i do really care.

u made the promise at the first
but after that u break it again n again.

i know the reason.
but why didnt u think before the consequence ? - my feeling
u dont know.

u just dont realise where is your problem..
it seems like im forcing u for everything

i never ask u to change.
coz tis is u.

maybe its my problem.
so ill change it.

seriously, i dont like to argue.
it hurts. really alot.

now i know the whole YOU.
i still love u.

sorry.
and i love u.

spm :S

2010-10-30T07:45:00.001-07:00

spm is in the corner
but im not ready yet :S
i really hope i can hit my target for SPM.
hahah.

ermm..
n whose going to PROM NITE o.O ?
lets just go together lar :D
high school PROM :)
have some fun after SPM kay :D ?!
hahaha.

n..
i really love to eat PANMEE
how ah :( so FAT leh... HAHAHAHA.

缘分。

2010-10-26T04:17:00.000-07:00

CREDITS TO MAKIYO 藤井真清

爱
是跟一个人朝夕相处
不断地去忍受对方的缺点
直到习惯和接受
甚至可以宠溺的一笑置之
那不是懦弱
那是最伟大的包容

有句话说“有缘牵手就别轻易放手”
其实真真切切的每个有感情的人都应该明白的
培养一段感情是多么不容易
如果因为年少轻狂、任性发脾气
因为很小的事闹成了分手
那真的很不值得

如果真是无缘的两个人
又怎么会相遇呢?

缘分这东西
看似是很虚无缥缈的
那我们再说说主观意识上的

看尽了太多的情侣吵架、分分和和
如果还有感情、还是爱着对方的
那大多数是怎么闹也分不了的
所以请别再继续伤感情了
换成享受吧..

放不下、也放不开的
就永远是属于你的

你捧着他的脸仔细用心地好好看一看他的眼睛
他需要你的理解、你的关怀、你的温柔
他的内心其实比你脆弱的多
有时候他只是想的开
但并不是不在乎..

因为他是男人
他不能像女人那样娇气
所以他更需要你的爱护

告诉男人们
其实你身边这个女人
只要她还在你身边
她就也是爱你的
而且爱的很深

你稍微仔细一点、耐心一点
听听她的诉求、那不是要求
只是她想在爱里找到更多一些踏实的感觉
你是她男人你要比她能担待
给她希望..
女人的心向来不会那么大
否则就不是女人了
所以她很容易满足的

她在意的是你的一个眼神、一句轻言、一个小小的礼物或者一次很认真的拥抱
只是男人
你们被自身坚强的外表欺骗了
于是走上了大男子主义的道路

她没有你成熟
所以遇到生气吵架这样的问题
更需要你的宽容和开导

你的大男子气概不要吓到她
你可以在外面很是霸气
但千万不要把这种势力带进家庭中
她会很难受

告诉在年龄上比自己男朋友小很多的女人
你的今天是他的昨天
你现在经历的是他经历过的
所以他说什么都是为你好
要虚心接受

他的大男子主义气势一定够强
你不要总觉得委屈
你要去适应、接受、包容

还要告诉所有的情侣
你们一定有着不同的朋友圈子
能融合到一起当然是好事
请尽量这样做..
把他/她介绍给你的朋友们
有活动尽量一起参加
这样真的能避免很多误会

如果实在合不来也不必强求
千万不要对另一半的朋友品头论足
不干涉就是最好的做法

其实幸福离我们很近
你稍微用一点心就能有很好的效果

希望大家都能幸福
加油哦 ♥

no mood :(

2010-10-25T10:02:00.000-07:00

SPM is coming within a month !

but how ?
i got no mood to study leh :(

help sikit lar guys :(

i want to try my best to get the best results.

god. hope so i can do it.

n nowadays,
im going crazy coz of eating -__-
HAHAHAH.

ciaoS ~~

results.

2010-10-21T22:52:00.000-07:00

yeap i went to school for this few days.
just to take my trial results. haha.

hmmm..
actually this time
im kinda happy with my results XD haha.

at least i passed my SEJARAH & BIO
some more my SEJ marks are higher than my BIO marks =-=
quite shocked for me. HAHA

ermm..
n i got some As too.
hope so i can do it better in my SPM :D
wish me luck. HAHA.

and good luck to my frens too :)
add oil~ teehee.

time for school :D

2010-10-19T08:42:00.000-07:00

i didnt go to school for 1 week.
opps =X
paiseh paiseh.
im kinda lazy :P hahaha.

anyway
tmr im going to school.
it's time for me to take my trials results @@

kinda scary huh -00-
nvm. im ready. HAHA.

see u guys in school :)

nitey~

depressed..

2010-10-16T09:55:00.001-07:00

suddenly
there are so many problems that i haven't solve.

felt so stress so depressed
like i cannot handle it.

so how ?
i have to face it too.

there was a moment
i felt lost
i cant find the way back
i wish u were there waiting for me
but this didn't appeared.

nevermind.
from now on
i will be really independent.
wish me luck n success.

random :S

2010-10-15T06:50:00.000-07:00

哭并不代表我屈服
退一步并不代表我认输
放手并不表示我放弃
微笑并不意味我快乐

能够说出的委屈便不算委屈
能够抢走的爱人便不算爱人

在对的时间遇到对的人
那是一种幸福
在错的时间遇到错的人
那是一声叹息

好的爱情是你通过一个人看到整个世界
坏的爱情是你为了一个人舍弃整个世界
在这个世界上
只有真正快乐的男人才能带给女人真正的快乐
马在松软的土地上易失蹄人在甜言蜜语中易摔跤。

holiday ?

2010-10-13T07:40:00.000-07:00

for me
i think im having a holiday after TRIAL
ya its just a trial not SPM =.= hahaha.

i need my study mood back for SPM
or else im dead :S

n yet,
today i went to sunway with sum mel all of them lar.

we watched DETECTIVE DEE :D
hahahah.
the show was about 2hours
not bad oso :)

n then they wanted to go for pool -___-
after that some more go for DESSERT
swt gao gao ><

i gonna gain weight AGAIN because of u all =-=

anyway
today was fun :D hahah.

there will be a next time right ?
hehe.

ENOUGH.

2010-10-09T09:58:00.000-07:00

just find some place to let me express my feeling.

i dont knw how to say.
how long i didnt feel like this?

does this call..heart broken?

everything u said i just cant feel that.
i cant see anything from u.

or just..
y must u lie to me?

or isit all my fault?
im the one wrong?

i just know that,
if is as i know is your 自尊心尊严好胜心 or watever make u go there,
then enough.
means wat u know ?
u do still care lots bout her.

some of her sentences, then u go.
wat is the first thing u think?
go anot?
or how i feel?

proven.
is the first one.

thought that u are the one can lead me in the future.
i accepted your immatured.
i thought i can fufill your heart.

but seems like not as i thought.

im not that important in your heart.
no spaces for me anymore.
ITS ENOUGH.

pls dont lie to me n yourself.

if u love me, show me,
if not, please please gently let me go.

trials over :D

2010-10-08T07:04:00.000-07:00

guess what ?
TRIAL IS OVER :D !!
hahaha.

i know is not SPM
but i still feel so happy -.-
hahaha.

at least i can back to my computer life for ..
maybe A MOMENT ?
hahaha XD

anyway
good luck for all PMR students :D

byee guys~
hehee

( -o- )"

2010-10-06T08:42:00.000-07:00

how much i wish u could comfort me when im very pressure
be with me when im very very stress
borrow your shoulder to me when i feel like crying.

but, i decided to be tougher than last time.

and i said i will means I WILL.

sleeping time X)

2010-10-05T01:11:00.001-07:00

finally tmr is the chemistry exam
i got some time to rest my mind @@
LOL.

coz of trial
feel like i gonna fall sick every week ==

n now outside is raining
guess what ?

sleeping time :)
hahahha.

once again
all the best my frens :D

untitled.

2010-10-02T04:11:00.000-07:00

just feel that this is so meaningful.
so just read all my frens.
comment to me through msn or fb or anything.
thanks.

吵架想必是全部情侣都碰过的事情双方越是喜欢越是容易吵架
明明知道其实是很小的一件事情到最后却还是那么生气接下来就是冷战。

其实这个道理他一直都懂他知道这是在乎的表现所以他对她的爱从来就没有动摇过。
如果只有他那么想那最后肯定有一方会承受不住的因为他也不敢确定她是不是和他想的一样。

对方的一举一动都细细的看在眼里会胡思乱想很正常的
所以当你有了男/女朋友之后请对其他异性保持一定的距离
好好的去珍惜你身边那位会约束你会吃你醋的人
不要觉得他不讲道理
因为要讲理那就做普通朋友好了。
普通朋友不会约束你并且都会尽量顺着你讲好听的给你。

相爱的人任何的吵闹嫉妒猜忌孩子气都是合理正常的
因为他重视你更重视你们之间的一切
情感才会敏感而强烈。

冷战时期其实对方都想要给对方打电话但互相也是在等着对方的电话
就是因为彼此都这么想
所以感觉既难受又生气甚至越想越气最后闹得不可开交
所以在他遇到这种情况的时候
他都是第一个说话的人因为他知道她是那么的爱他他也是那么的爱她。

男人总是让着自己心爱的女人
换个角度想一想其实你也是幸福中的人。

好好的珍惜你身边会为了一点小事而吃醋生气的人
因为你拥有着这样深深爱着你的人是一种幸福

情人心里面容不下一粒沙子
哪怕是很小很小真正爱你的人是容不下你和其他异性单独聊天或单独出去的

为什么要珍惜你的男/女朋友？
因为对方很爱你他愿意为你做很多事很多普通朋友不会帮你做的事

总之吵架的最初衷就是爱和在乎的混合体这可是一份最真最真的幸福噢。

女生不吵了不闹了不叫了就是真的不爱了
女生说要离开是伤心了是你让他失望了

女生明知道你们之间没有未来
却愿意留在你身边做个普通朋友不是她太贱只是她舍不得

女生故意在你面前提到别的男人不是她花心
他只是想要刺激一下你让你多在乎她一点

女生不主动打电话发信息给你
不是不想你
只是她不够自信当你接到电话短信时是否也同样的想念她

如果女生不爱你是绝对不会对你发脾气。

请不要报怨自己的女朋友脾气太怪
因为女生只会对她爱的人发脾气

女生总是在你面前假装很开心
不是她没心没肺成天傻乐
她只是为了在你面前留下最美的样子.

男生，其实你不懂全部。。

time.

2010-10-01T09:13:00.000-07:00

time is a problem.

hahahah.
got it ?

n..i will..
slowly..get over it.
i think so. hahah.

okay.
thats all. :)

爱得不够才会借口多多-《紫薇愿》

2010-09-28T02:09:00.000-07:00

有一天，杯子对主人说：＂我寂寞，我需要水，给我点水吧．＂

主人说：＂好吧，拥有了想要的水，你就不寂寞了吗？＂
杯子说：＂应该是吧．＂

于是，主人把开水倒进了杯子里．水很热，杯子感到自己快融化了，杯子想，这就是爱情的力量吧．
然后，水变温了，杯子感觉很舒服，杯子想，这就是生活的感觉吧．
后来，水变凉了，杯子感到害怕了，怕什么他也不知道，杯子想，这就是失去的滋味吧．

慢慢地，水凉透了杯子绝望了杯子想，这就是缘分的＂杰作＂吧．
杯子说：＂主人，快把水倒出去，我不需要了．＂
但是主人不在．杯子感觉自己快压抑死了，可恶的水，凉凉的，放在心里，感觉好难过．

杯子奋力一晃，水终于走出了杯子的心里，杯子好开心。
突然，杯子掉在了地上．杯子碎了。

临死前，看见了它心里的每一个地方都有水的痕迹，
它才知道，它爱水，它是如此的爱着水，
可是，它再也无法把水完整地放在心里了．

杯子哭了，它的眼泪和水溶在一起，它奢望着能用最后的力量再去爱水一次.

fresh air xD

2010-09-28T01:31:00.000-07:00

took the sejarah exam today.

after the test i felt sooo relax xD
i dont know why. hahaha

anyway everything is not over yet -.-
addmaths bio n phys are still waiting for me. god.

wish me luck :)
n everyone of my friends :D
take care n all the best ♥

---------------------------------------

有些人分手以后最好双方都不要见面因为心会阵阵痛怕回忆起以前的甜蜜

有些人即使是分手以后也可以成为好朋友甚至变成红粉知己

可以了解因为我也有几个红粉知己
不要误会 == 不代表我之前有很多男朋友 -.-

总之我的结论就是做人要公平一点哈哈哈。

----END----

trial -.-

2010-09-22T09:13:00.000-07:00

okay.

23.9.10
trial starts.

good luck to all of my frens n the others.
of course me too XD hahaa.

im gonna quit my comp really soon :(
gonna miss it.

everyone,
try really hard for this time.

gambateh wei :D !!
we can do it right ? haha.

besides,
thanks to my boy for the understanding.
im having a tough time. so..haha u know right.
kamsahamnida :)

.all the best.

LTWJ ♥

2010-09-19T08:48:00.000-07:00

i cant stop thinking of u.

i care everything anything bout u.

i want to be with u as long as i can.

does this call love :| ?
hahahah ><

i think so.

n i learnt how to think positively.
seriously.

a brand new experience for me.
hahaa.

thank u for giving me tis much :)
thanks ♥

FION :(

2010-09-18T06:12:00.001-07:00

1 more fren gone.

dont worry.
she just went to UK to study.

today went to the airport to send her.
saw her parents n some of her frens oso.

starting we were kinda happy.
chit chat all those.
JUST CRAP larh @@ hahaha.

but then she still have to leave,
is time for her to go in.... :(

all of us just cannot hold our tears.
of course including her parents,
who tell her pls take care, dont simply trust ppl,
wear more cloths,n etc.
this scene just made us cry more.

beside, she will love our photo album right?
haha hope so :)

she still keep on turn back when she went it
i know u will miss us badly oso :(

we hug each other n just cry. hahaha

hmm..n now she's still in the flight i guess.
cepat cepat bring some leng zai let us see ok XD ?! hahah

take care PION UNNIE :)

happy birthday wai wai :D

2010-09-17T07:33:00.000-07:00

17 sept is sit wai's birthday :D
hahah.

~ HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRL ~

so that we went to 1U to celebrate as she wants it.

there were the birthday girl-WAI me wj ck ym ms zm ch.

then we decided & went to NEW YORK DELI to eat :D
too bad i got not much appetite :(

n i promised her that,
she will get a BIG BIG SUPRISED X)
kesian WMS. hahaha.
unforgetable right dear ?
say thank u faster XD haha.

at last we go shopping for a while,
but then the boys go fror the pool @@ LOL.

anyway,
it was a fun day :D
hahah.

PS: i hope u like my present :) teehee.

wrong timing =.=

2010-09-14T06:36:00.000-07:00

im sick of fall sick -.-

this is totally wrong.

trial is around the corner,
but im lying on the bed == swt.

pls let me recover faster OH GOD @@
i have to study T_________T

or else everything is too late.

*pray pray*

thx =)

2010-09-13T09:09:00.000-07:00

one of my best fren told me something.
coz, she know me very very well too.

she knows what im thinking,
what im worrying,
without wasting too much of my saliva -0- hahaha

one of her sentence,
wake me up seriously. LOL

突然想起过去的感情，尽管一直想着也于事无补，时间会帮助你站起来的，加油！

really thank u.
i suddenly feel much more better after this.
thx :) wheeeeeeee~~

resident evil:AfterLife :D

2010-09-13T06:43:00.000-07:00

today went to sunway
to watch the movie-resident evil.
hahaha

guess what?
we got 4 pairs of couple here :D haha
i know im kinda sampat for this
coz i never try this before XD hahaha

quite a nice movie actually.
but same thing as SALT,
have to wait for the next one again -.- LOL.

okay this time,
they made my day :D hahaa
thank u everyone :)

PS:sorry maymay :( didnt go TS. i wanted to go oso..haihh..

de-stress xD

2010-09-11T01:01:00.000-07:00

went to sunway today to DE-STRESS~ muahaha

thx to my mum.
i bought 1 pair of shoes n 1 jeans. haha xD

n thx to SOMEONE,
i gonna grow few KG again today i think ==

when im happy,
i have good appetide.

when im not in a mood,
i will eat my dear icecream ==

so what today ?
ice cream day -0-

chocolate&cookies ♥
yummmmmiieeee~

crazy nite :)

2010-09-07T21:55:00.000-07:00

ok ytday..
ermm should count as today i think ? haha

we talked from 1230am-4am ..
through phone..haha

we talked crap only actually -.-
hahaha

i know its a bit crazy :)

ermm.. im trying to be better and better
i hope i can be better than your past,
coz she's so nice n beautiful,
i just feel that so so failure,
dont ask me y,
im wondering too.

n..i miss u badly too :(

count down 4 days. teehee

PS:TRIAL~ good luck my frens :D !!!

holiday :(

2010-09-04T09:03:00.000-07:00

okay its holiday time :D ~!!
yeeppiiiiiii~

but then..
i should feel happy or not ?

coz after the 2weeks holiday,
we are going to face our TRIAL -.-

so..i gonna try really hard for this time.

but why i dont really got a study mood de >i have to find back my mid year term feeling already =.= hahaha

wish me luck guys :)

anyway enjoy your holiday oso~

weeeeeeeeeeee~~

byee my frens :(

2010-09-01T07:36:00.000-07:00

yea today i skipped school =X
went to the airport to send THEM

no school but i still have to wake up at 6am =-=
LOL.

firstly we went to LCCT to send 1 of my fren,
shes going to taiwan to study the interior design.
how talented :) good luck seng yee~

dont cry lah u HAM BAO XD
hahaha.

n then around noon time,
we went to KLIA to send 1 more fren.
shes going to taiwan oso to study mass commmunication.

everyone is crying there.
how sad..:( haihh..

ok i cried gao gao oso -.-
but i dont really like to cry infront of my frens lah u know.
so paiseh =X

they are going to study for 4 years there in taiwan..
i gonna miss them soo muchh T__T
whose going to SPAM the twitter with me again wor..
not enough ppl lah T___T

anyway..
its over.
they reached taiwan already i think ?
hahah.

good luck to them.
i love every of my frens :)
guyss , do well in your study pls.
dont make yourself regret okay ?

good luck everyone :) hahaha

merdeka :)

2010-08-30T10:19:00.000-07:00

ok its over 12am now.
MERDEKA ~ :D !!

30th nite time
when me n ck finished tuition
someone >> CHEN YING SHUANG <<
u are sooo damn smart ==
i didnt say i want to go out :S

guess wat ?
she said " pi si~ come out~ lets go~ "
wahhh u so geng lah =.=
come already oni say ><" ! swtt

fine fine..
so ALL of us went to taman mega MENGTIN there
lets count.

me wj ck ys jy ms malao ws cy jon cs zw
hmm i hope i didnt miss out anyone. hahaha

ok it was really fun today.
luckily i didnt miss my day :D hahaha

i just cant stop laughing when im with them
as u know,
THEY ARE REALLY CRAZY -.- !! hahaha

especially the 2 GAY PARTNER - zhiwei+MUMSUM
fuiiyoooo XD *big clap*
hahaha.

anyway,
i love my day :)
thx to everyone :D
luckily i didnt end my day with only the tuition :S LOL

thank u :)

teehee :)

2010-08-28T09:15:00.000-07:00

okay.
firstly thx for the wishes from everyone of u :) hahah

from now on,
i have a brand new life.

i got him now in my life ♥
i appreciate it.

thx to all my frens.
just everything :D hehee.

LTWJ ♥

PS:n ya. STEP UP 3!!! was really really nice :D !!! anyone..everyone.. that love dancing, pls go have a look =D it was super duper nice !! hahaha

REDBOX DAY :D

2010-08-25T08:15:00.000-07:00

ok...
i skipped school today =X
n went to redbox with my frens. hahahah

coz 3 of them are going to leave MAS on september
today is the last time i hang out with them.

next wednesday..
2 of them will leave us n go to TAIWAN to study for 4 years
OMG y so long worrr T____T

n then 1 more is on 18 sept to UK.
PION u better come back fast oso T______T
u stupid future lawyer wuuuuu..

today..we really have lots of fun actually :D hahaha

should be hitea package 1-6pm,
but then..maybe those ppl just didnt realise the time
so we just sang till 7pm++ XD OMG hahahaha
my voice..is sooo damn cacat now :S

we took lots of photoS today.
it will be the best memory for me after u guys leave :)

i will miss the past time so much :(

see u guys next wednesday at d airport T___T

thank u :)

2010-08-23T00:13:00.000-07:00

相信地久天长的爱情是存在的。
或许你经历了男友的背叛，但请你相信，背叛你的人曾经也真诚的爱过，但他爱的那个人可能不是你。
所以，请始终对爱情抱着积极的态度，这样容易得到幸福。

is for my dear brenda :)
cheer up girl ~ !!!

i know is very sad to say ..
yes he dont love u ><
but doesnt mean that the other guyS are bad as him oso right ?

give yourself a chance okay :D ?
release yourself
be treaten by someone
protected by someone
sweet talk with someone
it do feels good right ?

we will help u.
all the way beside u.
dont worry u are not alone there darling :D

is time for u to be protected.
u are 19 !!!!
faster or else u will grow older n older XD !!

seminar @@

2010-08-22T05:15:00.000-07:00

ok..i woke up early morning today
around 7am.
then when to UM the seminar for science subs

9-6.30pm
OMG it was sooo damn tiring ok -.-
my butt oso pain already .. SWT

but then..
actually it was really too rush lah =-=

they still got many things not yet discuss with us
then just start d other subs

the WORST is BIO ==
damn it. wasting my money
half regret =.=

the time is totally not enough

haihhh..ok nvm
at least i still learn something :)
nothing else to do with this already
hahaha.

PS:the bio teacher today is kinda LENGZAI O.O rite waiwai XD ? hahaha =X